Sunday, April 08, 2018

NaPoWriMo: Poems #11 & #12: Math and Grace


Note about these poems come from my frustration with studying to pass my West B. I will, hopefully next month, but right now it seems impossible. The other poem came from an interesting conversation about the phrase “fallen from grace” that I had with a friend recently.

Mushy Math Mad Dash
A math test
Doesn’t bring out my best
It makes me question my absolute value
And what I know about me that is true
I shudder and stutter through
Equations that make my mind like glue
Stuck on one thing
A number zoo
The connections don’t zing
Listening for the ping
My stomach hurts
As my little quirks
Become huge under this microscope
I can’t cope
I choke
My self-esteem up in smoke
Passing it feels remote
As I grasp at tomorrow’s hope


Terms of Grace
Fallen from grace
A friend argued
Can’t be
In his theology
The phrase is wrong
As grace is a thing not place
Something to fall from
Has to be a where to him
Not a what
This is his bug-a-boo
Or what he takes issue
That people say this phrase
As if they know where they fell from
He face palms and tells me it isn’t right
To be cast in the night without
To be in doubt
To fall from a location
Sounds wrong
But isn’t by God’s throne
Where Jesus is home?
Is part of the what and where
We fall from?
There is no pun,
I intend to explain
That we remain
With Jesus when he pleads for us
He blankets our mess and fuss
Of the sin we are in
Perhaps to fall is more of a slide?
A slippery slope we decide
To sneak away
From all he paid
For us to live and abide
We hide instead
In our beds
Covering our heads
Saying, ”Go away God!”
It is a plot
Where you make me
Miserable every day
So just “go away!”
When God stays
That is grace
As I understand it
Though we don’t deserve it
It is there
So we can’t really swear
And say we fall away
If there isn’t a day it isn’t there
Grace covers our sin
It lets us into the throne room
And makes us a home to visit or stay
But it never goes away
Tomorrow or today

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